Wow… it’s hard to believe that it’s been six months today since I had spinal fusion surgery. It’s been a rough ride. It’s definitely turned my life upside down. So many things have changed because of surgery, and just during the time of surgery. I’ve fought with self-loathing, deppression, tons of pain, hope about my future, and more. I’ve gained some friends, and realized who my true friends are. But the greatest two things I’ve learned are these:
He restores my soul.
It is not by strength one prevails.
Both of these phrases are from the Bible, and they came to me in some of my deepest moments of sadness. It was like God was saying to me that He will restore my life to fullness of joy and relationships and just beauty in general. And that it is not my own strength that causes me to prevail. Faith, and trust in God to take care of me is the reason that I prevail. When I come out of this time of healing completely (1 year), and I am able to be a better me, the reason for that is because He has been the strength that restored me.